crammed in a void

During the entire Holy Week, I was completing the requirements for my second-degree application in the College of Fine Arts and Design. I went there, Monday, after Easter. Nakasalubong ko yung father ng friend / ex-classmate who's a professor sa college na yun. What he told me seemed to be the saddest news of my life--the applications are already closed for the course, BA Advertising. Huhuh! I was late for everything. -sulks in a corner-

Anyway, my friend's father gave me an option; actually, it's the only option. He told me, I could take BA Painting for the meantime. Tapos magshift na lang daw ako pagdating ng second year sa Adver. Matutulungan daw nya ko na makapasok. He could pull some strings to let me in.

Medyo napaisip ako, pero nah. Aanhin ko ang painting. I'd only waste one entire year taking that course. I know it's a noble field of interest; but, it's not my thing. Painting is not my stuff.

So, ayun. Since painting is a no-no. I thought I could wait for another opening--next year. Might be another option.

The question is, can I wait?

To be honest, napapaisip na ko kung idelay ko na lang 'tong 'big dream' ko. Perhaps, magtitiis na lang ako. Ilang years lang naman eh. It's not like I won't be gaining much from making something out of these four years in nursing school. Alam na alam naman nating there's clearly a pot of gold behind this profession.

Well I guess I don't have a choice. The best thing for me to do is... yeah, work as a nurse. Be practical. Earn dollars. Get filthy rich. Forget--or, no. Delay the 'dream'. Think about it later. I still have time for dreams. Anyway, I'm still young and the road is still long for me to walk about.